I can finally heave a sigh of relief. The 2 things that have been stressing me out for these months, my exams and Christmas Eve piano playing/chorale singing are over!! It was particularly stressful because they were the 2 things that I really didn’t want to screw up. The anxiousness was so bad that it affected my appetite, it’s quite the sensation to feel hungry and yet repulsed to food at the same time. Thanks to that I even lost 2 kg! (Already gained back 1kg after 1 week hoho)
It does feel weird to have nothing on my agenda. During my study leave, I set my alarm and dragged myself out of bed. I prepared a timetable that went “breakfast, study, piano, lunch, study, piano, dinner, tv” lolol. I question why I go so hardcore in my sabbatical. When I was preparing the chorale segment, i spent free moments on public transport listening to the recordings over and over.
The next day after the Christmas Eve service was over, while traveling out on public transport on Christmas Day, I had no idea what to listen to on my phone... It’s such a bittersweet feeling to meet an amazing group of people and accomplish something together, and have it end!
But yet, on the day of Christmas Eve, I couldn’t help this warm, fuzzy, and quiet happiness that is bubbling within me. Having brothers and sisters in Christ, a solid community, has been so uplifting for me. Despite everyone being so busy with their personal commitments, we still see each other each week, joyful to return into the house of God and to serve Him with the little that we have to offer. How does service become such a joy? It does feel like it’s what one can do in response to the God who loved us with His life. Brothers and sisters in Christ sharing their testimonies, being thankful for each other, supporting one another with prayer, is really something that sets this wonderful community apart from the world. Thank you God, for letting me experience being a part of it.
